What’s in a name

Why did I choose the name Lorelai Ministries. I believe God gave me this name for what I wanted to do with my time and focus for the ministry I envisage. It is a name that is close to my heart. Our first miscarriage occurred in 2012 and this was the name I had chosen for our baby – Lorelai. Following this miscarriage I was diagnosed with secondary infertility and prescribed Clomid after tests confirmed I was not ovulating. At this point we had already gone through a few years of trying to get pregnant. Anyone who has been through a remotely similar journey will understand the turmoil and emotions every month. I believed it was my fault why we couldn’t get pregnant.

Being a woman of faith I was praying all the time, trying to listen for the answers. I read the leaflet for Clomid and came to the conclusion that it was not for me. I was not prepared to risk the outcomes on any future child or my own body. So I prayed to God and said if there are any more biological children in our future then it has to be from Him because I am not willing to do this through medication that could harm me or a child. At that point I withdrew myself from treatment.

I’m not sure if it was only a few months later or a year later. But on the 1st September 2016 I discovered I was pregnant. I prayed every day for protection over that baby, for God to protect me and for a healthy baby and pregnancy. In May 2017 our daughter was born. Our son was 10 the month before our daughter was born. I know I would’ve loved another son, but I had always wanted a daughter. I didn’t feel like I was worthy enough, I didn’t want to be a Mum that would pass on traumas to my own daughter and I didn’t feel like I was able to ask God for a daughter. God knows what he’s doing and He knows best. Looking back I can see how having a daughter has healed me in so many ways that would not have occurred with a son. I see in my daughter parts of me that never got to live, that will now get to. I can speak over her and pray for her all the things that I should’ve had spoken over me. I can change the legacy for future generations and break trauma off my bloodline.

And so I come to the verse I chose, or rather, I feel was Holy Spirit given. It is from Joel 2:25 where God says He will restore the years the locust has eaten. When God restores he doesn’t just give back what was lost, he gives back with increase, interest, more than what you could possible imagine out of the love He has for his children. He puts his heart on display. My daughter was restoration for what was lost, but everything else that has come after that, the inner healing, that is God in His infinite wisdom restoring to me the years the locusts have eaten.

Lorelai is now also part of my daughters name and so by naming this ministry Lorelai I am honouring what we lost but also the restoration power we have in Jesus too.